Mamahood.

Well it's been almost a year since the last time I posted on Within Our Walls. Let me tell you, a lot has happened since then!

The hubs & I went on our vacation to the Bahamas; it was an amazing getaway. We love cruise life (mostly midnight buffets) & the beach. I started that job I really wanted the week after we came home from the Bahamas. We found out we were pregnant shortly thereafter, but had a miscarriage at 6 weeks in August of last year (I'm not sure if I'll ever blog about that; it was a really hard time for us). In October we found out we were pregnant again & I was scared out of my mind. Every appointment, I was expecting bad news, but we always left the OBGYN's office with smiles on our faces.

Now our little guy is 6 weeks old and motherhood has already been the craziest ride of my life. The birth was perfect & our little man made his grand entrance rocking a full head of hair. Since then, we've been working on figuring out this whole parenthood thing. I've had some rough, rough days but we have pushed through and our little man has us both wrapped around his finger. 

What I've learned:

1. Things don't always go as you planned. This one is a hard one for me to swallow, but it's better to roll with the punches than to have massive breakdowns when all your plans get thrown out the window.

2. All the intricacies of being a parent don't necessarily come naturally for everyone. I totally thought I would just know what to do when our son came; boy was I wrong. I feel like I've said the words "I have no idea what I'm doing" more in the last 6 weeks than any other time in my whole life. But that's okay, because nobody knows what they're doing. 

3. Comparisons don't help anyone. Uh, this one's a big one. I have a really hard time refraining from comparing, but what I've learned is that everyone is different & fretting about that will just stress you out for no reason at all.

4. Daddies rule. For real, people. I have no idea how I would get through this without my husband by my side. Being in a dual-parent household has only made me respect the role of fathers even more. (Also, shout out to all you single moms! You are saints.)

5. Enjoy it. Okay, if I'm being honest, I'm still working on this one. The closer I get to going back to work, the more I realize how precious my time with my little guy is. Things won't always be this way, & I'm sure I'll look back on this time of my life one day and miss it. So even with as hard as it is, I know I need to just enjoy every moment (even when he's crying, peeing all over me, or spitting up on my freshly changed clothes; that's all in a standard day around here anymore).

There you have it, folks. Mamahood is hard, but somehow everyone seems to make it through. I've been told it's all worth it in the end, but I can say that it's worth it now too. Keep your head up, enjoy this crazy ride, and don't forget to soak in all those memories along the way.