Growth.

Every time my thoughts turn back to this blog, I realize it has been A G E S since I’ve posted, & I miss it. But to be honest, when life is crazy with an almost 2 year old (how did that happen?!), a full time job, & a brand new house, it’s easy to get bogged down.

I have done a lot of self-reflection over the last year or so, & I realized something really scary: I’m not happy.

How could I not be? I have a sweet little boy, a loving husband, & all the support I could ever ask for. And what made it worse was that it felt like one day I was fine, but the next I woke up and everything was horrible. Soon those dark days turned into weeks, then months, & I felt hopeless. I pled with my husband & I was angry with the world & how it had betrayed me.

So I changed. Everything.

We packed up from Arizona, moved to North Carolina on a (sort of) whim. We lived with my sister for three months while we sold our home in Arizona and bought one in North Carolina. I started spending more time listening to uplifting things. I started a new job.

And now, I’m starting my blog again. This time, with no fear of judgement.

I am just trying to become the best version of me, & I finally realized that I deserve to do what it takes to be happy, but that my search for happiness is something within me.

Thank goodness for a supportive husband, the best friends & family in the world, & the love of my Heavenly Father. More to come soon.